there is a reason i choose to live the way that i do. to love everyday and choose happiness and joy with a big smile in my life. i am reminded of this every time i speak to my parents. my dad will talk about the weather and then proceed to tell me about some ailment he has endured this month. it’s always something different, and how his heart could stop any day. he has been waiting for his heart to stop since he was about 50. he’s 72 now.

my mom then proceeds to tell me about her ailment of the month, and how she is doing much better now, but it was pretty horrible. how she has had to take care of my dad and how he’s doing so much better now though. you get the picture….

today my mom said, “are you still doing that homeschooling thing?”

REALLY? did she just say that?  just let it go jen. let it roll on down the road….

we can’t talk about religion or politics, because then everything will just go to shit…

that is why i am conscious of savoring the moments with my kids that bring love and smiles to my face. i know another way that it can go.  that is why i’m always searching for a new path to truth, because my parents could talk to me all day and not say what they are truly feeling. i know they are doing their best, but it really gets to me sometimes and then i have to let it out, usually to my husband who listens patiently and loves me everyday.

i’ll be on this journey for the rest of my life. i will love them, even if most of the time i don’t understand them at all.  i will find love in the moments, the silence in between.